Your Choice | You Open Your “Hand” and Satisfy The ”Desire” of Every Living Thing
B'H |By David Speyer
Each day in our prayers we say about HaShem “PoSayach Et Yadecha OoMaSBia LeChol Chai Ratzon - You Open Your Hand and Satisfy The Desire of Every Living Thing” from the prayer “Ashrei” Tehillim 145.
You should always try to have “prayer with deliberation.” But when saying this sentence you must concentrate. You can’t rush, mumble or eye it – you must say it and say it slowly with focus. According to our Rabbi’s this simple yet intricate sentence must be repeated if it is not said with concentration. Why?
Kabbalah describes HaShem as providing with His right and left Hands. Right represents Chesed – kindness, love, giving, sharing and expansiveness. The left is justice, judgment, sternness, withholding and contraction. These are two strikingly different and opposite realms and yet this remarkable processes constantly takes place throughout creation “and” at the same time. Through this process Rachamim “Mercy” comes into existence.
In Ashrei, the term “Hand” is in the singular. So which hand are we speaking of – the right or the left? If you read the full Ashrei you should assume that G-d is giving us Chesed because we implore HaShem through praises; speaking of G-d’s splendor, greatness, glorious majesty, exaltation and so forth. And what about “desire”? If you think it through, you might assume that it presents an opportunity to ask HaShem for your needs – and you are right.
How does this fit in with the terminology as explained according to Chassidus of a “stirring from below creates a stirring from above”, “so below, so above” and “embrace with the right while pushing off with the left.” How does a physical action affect the spiritual realms and then bring into the world a cause and effect – a reaction. Lastly, why do we say Shuva – Shelemah (repentance and healing)? Why not straight to Shelemah (healing)? How does everything fit together?
Our world is a world of action. Action allows for choice and by choice you have free will to decide. G-d’s purpose in manifesting the world is to create for Himself a dwelling place through the expression of our recognition of His existence. We partner in this process. When our actions are counter to HaShem’s Will, a separation in the name of G-d is created. According to the Ari Z’l (Rabbi Isaac Luria) this requires a Tikkun or repair and deals with reincarnation and/or Teshuvah (fixing) – returning the Hei in HaShem’s name of YHV’H (the last Hei) back to its origin.
A stirring from below are our actions – to heal means we have to do something to fix. When we create a separation in YHVH we are responsible to repair. This requires of us an initial stirring from below – this is sincere Shuva. This pulls the Shelemah (healing) from above. Sometimes the “fixing or healing” is a measured or tempered “din”– or through Rachamim (Mercy) and most times it is a combination of both. We don’t know and we can’t judge HaShem’s ways. But everything G-d does is to help us along our path. Our part is to trust in HaShem, have faith and accept the test and to thank the One above.
How does HaShem know what your true desire is? If you ask HaShem for help - so HaShem looks at your actions and says “on the one hand I have the requests, the prayers and the desires - but on the other hand I see that the person’s actions have not changed.” So HaShem keeps giving you what you want – He gives you what your “actions” are because “action” is the world we live in. In essence you keep showing Him what you really want. The “hand” HaShem gives you is from the “desire” you have. The “desire” is not just measured by your prayer and thoughts – it’s in a larger part by your deeds. That’s the choices we make and it becomes the road we travel on. You can change the road with only one step – it changes your entire direction.